Ferroth

What can you do for your nation?

Not just him. Not just her. Not just them. Not just whoever is in any ‘hot seat’ in government.

What can you do to make your nation a little better?

Your city? Your neighborhood? Your home?

Every nation has its leaders and representatives. A face. But every nation is made of people. The people and what they say, do, and why they say or do anything, makes their nation, and determines that nation’s stability, safety, and tranquility. Any corruption starts with the little things. The littles ways people start becoming dishonest. Or stealing tiny little insignificant things. Telling little white lies…because that can give way to bigger dangers. People watch your example, and they learn from it. And others watch their examples and learn from it. It grows and becomes a great problem. Even seeing people as being different from you. ‘Those people are not us.’ ‘They believe different things that I don’t believe, and they will be the fall of the nation. I blame them.’

Any house divided cannot stand. Any family, any neighborhood, any nation. There are opinions everywhere, but only one truth. Are we all going to agree on everything? Likely never. But we must not make enemies of each other. We should educate one another and ourselves, and be humble with ourselves, set aside our pride, and pursue whatever is true together. Open up, communicate, in a spirit that does not accuse or condemn too quickly before listening. Even if we think we have the answers, we must be open and not afraid to learn something new. If the truth is out there, and if we have the ability to discern what is correct, true, and right, there is nothing to fear from exploring—even if just to understand where others are coming from—something so important in clean communication.

Set a good example. Be welcoming. Be compassionate. Be wise and discerning. Do not condemn but try advising peacefully. Educate yourself with information and be prepared to meet whatever you will encounter in your nation. Be respectful of one other. Honor the human rights of every person through your words, actions with from a heart of love, not ego or pride. Do not be jealous, honor the good victories of others. Victories that build and heal and show love and compassion, wisdom and bravery.

As Doctor Martin Luther King Junior said in his Strength to Love speech in 1963, "Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that." And as Doctor King said in his Atlanta sermon in Georgia in 1967 "If we are to have peace on earth, our loyalties must become ecumenical rather than sectional. Our loyalties must transcend our race, our tribe, our class, and our nation; and this means we must develop a world perspective."

Mankind must be upheld. Anything that creates division in our minds, ‘us versus them,’ must be torn down. This is not to say we shouldn’t be discerning—but we must be compassionate and uphold humanity, and the dignity of every person. Not just by voting for this person or that but by our compassionate example. And by holding our representatives accountable even the ones we vote for. We must be careful to not be loyal to any one person and whatever they say or do or who we believe them to be that it come before what it true. We must be loyal to mankind, our neighbor everywhere. We must show it by our polite and respectful example. Our educated and wise example. Our good deeds. Our rebuking for apathy of what is wrong—even the little things. Our desire to build up others, not destroy them, where at all possible. To defend those who are wronged. To give to those who have none.

Once again quoting Doctor Martin Luther King Junior, this time from his letter from Birmingham, Alabama jail, April 16, 1963, “Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.”

Anywhere, even in our homes, our neighborhoods, our cities, and everyplace and most importantly everyone who makes up anyone’s nation.

Let it start with you. Let good deeds, shunning wrong deeds, compassion, discernment, and justice and peace all start with you. There’s much work to be done, because people see the example of others. Hypocrisy hides in many corners of the world, and people suffer from it. They don’t forget what they suffer. They don’t easily forgive. Clean it up, and let others know you clean it up not because you hate your nation, but because you love your nation. Any enduring nation must be able to live with its conscience. Love your nation, because you love humanity. Because you put mankind before all—the dignity for every living person before pride, before clan, tribe, house, whatever. Show you understand the importance of what is right. And the dangers of what is wrong.

There is work to do. We must all hold each other accountable, uphold what is true, in a spirit of compassion, and pursuit of what is right. We must be humble, listen to each other. Look at each other and see—this is my friend. What can I do for them? What can I change? What can I do, to move my nation and the world, mankind, closer in the direction of what it right? What is enduring? What is stable, and tranquil?

Just believe. :)

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Comments disabled to avoid potential wildfires. It is not my intention to endorse any political agenda here or condemn another—it is my intention to transcend political agendas and address something much more important. The truth, and the pursuit of it. Education and learning—as much as possible. What is right, avoiding what is wrong. Respecting one another. Working together and setting aside a clan, tribe, house, any unjust and detrimental division. Reaching out and listening to each other and being willing to listen to what they have to say—not being afraid of information in pursuit of the truth. Doing one’s own part, not just a leader or representative.

I decided to write this journal after listening to a compassionate friend of mine who has seen many people stealing in front of her in a cashier line. :( The fall of any nation starts with the smallest injustices—ones we do again and again even if we know they’re wrong or we kid ourselves into believing it’s ok—the principle of hypocrisy. But I believe just as little things from everyday people can hurt a nation, the good things from the everyday person can help heal it. :)

“Yo it's crazy, amazing

We can turn our heart through the words we say

Mountains crumble with every syllable

Hope can live or die

Well, it's crazy to imagine

Words from my lips as the arms of compassion

Mountains crumble with every syllable

Hope can live or die

So speak life, speak life

To the deadest darkest night

Speak life, speak life

When the sun won't shine and you don't know why

Look into the eyes of the broken hearted

Watch them come alive as soon as you speak hope

You speak love, you speak

You speak life, oh oh oh oh oh

You speak life, oh oh oh oh oh”

Speak Life sung by Toby Mac— Song Writers Jamie Moore / Ryan Stevenson / Toby Mckeehan

Happy Easter everyone!

Come Alive.

Just Believe.

MercenaryBlade inadvertently gave me the idea for this journal xD So here goes

Drex: On a soft rug near his favorite toys will do, and a nightlight Tryx: On her memory foam matress in the studio surrounded by lavendar scented aromas and a humidify.

Ferroth: Under his heat lamp, while listening to the soothing sounds of John Serrie‘s music from his ipad. A weighted blanket is a plus.

Bellilinde: The light on, but dimmed, weighted blanket, warm lavendar tea and honey, and always a friend nearby. Has trouble sleeping alone.

Svadri: Wherever. He’s not picky. ^^

Nekoda: Likewise. Adaptable.

Nava Nyx: Pajamas and the AC on…and the time for her to rest is precious. She doesn’t get a lot of it.

Ekimaru: Don’t sleep…be afraid. Be very afraid.

Sanga: Underwear on stone block and steel neck support, no blanket. Three torches lit.

Tyriq: Plush cushions and silks, near an open window where he can hear the sounds of nature or the desert winds.

Kameilo: In Cri’ru, nightshirt under a thick blanket. Even better in a hammock. After Cri’ru—her wolfie’s fur coat, hidden as he curls around her. Nothing else will do.

Evraen: Goes commando, if he has a bed and blanket and a safe place to rest, after cookies and milk. But keeps a knife close. As a feral crow, (alternate incarnation) he’s near his human as his comfort/therapy animal, dutifully rested and watchful, home.

Chris Crusoe: In zero gravity, cortical electrodes to induce the exact kind of dreams he wants to have.

This is intended to be a thank-you journal to my friends, but I do say many informative words about my integrity and how I have striven to deal with some drama. As mentioned in my previous journals, I'm done trying to call people out. I won't live in a spirit of fear or let myself be provoked, nor will I react in a spirit of fear when provoked anymore. It stops with me.

Thank you, my friends, for being vigilant and sticking with me. I've grateful that I haven't lost any of you and that you've been wise and faithful.

I don't have many who have any gripe with me--I might have a couple through the 10 years or so I've been here--but for those who do have a gripe with me, I just wish for them to leave me in peace. I've always only ever wished for them to leave me alone and in peace. Never have I wished or expressed anything criminal against them. Convictional language, yes, but I never wished any criminal harm.

You know you have good friends when they see you for your example over anything anyone else might try to say. Thank you everyone.

I don't have many who have any gripe with me--I might have a couple or so through the years--but for the few who do, I just wish for them to leave me in peace. I've only ever wanted anyone who has any gripe with me just to leave me in peace and move on, like I've tried to do the same.

I've had 1 or 2 people in the past try to twist my words manipulatively however. One person said falsely I called him 'a mistake' (like a mistake of person)--which is something I wouldn't ever tell my worst enemy--and that accusation hurt because not only was it very serious, coming from someone I wanted to treasure respectfully, but also because it just wasn't true. I removed the journal to respect him, but I won't be doing that anymore, because I believe a record should be kept.

One other person has been claiming I wish him actual harm, claiming I think the word would be better off without him, or other horrible things, or posing it as a question--a question that really comes out of left field. But as my friends know, I've never said any such thing, and no one can show that I ever said any such thing because I never did. And I never meant any such cruel thing any as much as I never said it. Wishing people harm, or saying the world is better off without anyone, are also words I wouldn't tell anyone. Not even my worst enemy. I wouldn't tell anyone, and I haven't told anyone. Let the record show it.

Sometimes I have been provoked by these people, I admit, especially in recent past. I spoke in a language used to to try to convict them for not listening to me and to just leave me in peace, and the offenses they did to me and others. Yes, I've been extremely convictional when people have provoked me, even when I've been patient with them for years. But the record is in my journals and everywhere. I've not hidden anything or said anything that I keep secret. If anyone says I wished harm on them, let them be convicted for lying. Because I haven't said it anywhere. All I want is peace, no trouble, and for anyone otherwise to leave me in peace.

Some people might claim they want a civil resolution too, but then they try to claim I said things I didn't, wished things I never did, and use very serious language involving self harm or other such immature threats that I never invoked. Not very civil, is that? They only invoked it themselves. They pulled the claim out of the ether. But I'm not going to be provoked by it anymore. I never wanted to make anyone my enemy, only for people to respectfully leave me alone if they made me uncomfortable. And I left it at that, but they kept provoking me through the years.

Fortunately, I'm grateful my friends know me by my own example. Thank you.

If anyone thinks I should have told them why I blocked them, and they would have apologized, I also would have respected that, but there are more reasons I block people. And I do keep a long list of other deviants I have blocked. I just don't vibe well with some people, their statements, their art, their attitude, or whatever. It doesn't mean I think anyone in particular is a bad person, but if I block someone who makes me uncomfortable, that is everyone's right. If I can't resolve it, I do that first, but if there's more to it, I reserve the right--and I have upheld that right. And I certainly don't vibe well with people who make bogus claims that I hate anyone or wish anyone harm. Again, if they make that claim, let the record show I never said any such thing, and let them be convicted for lying about me.

Restating, I don't hate anyone, nor wished any harm on anyone. If anything I just want people to take responsibility for their offenses, as I strive to take responsibility for mine. And if they don't and I feel threatened, then I continue to block them through everything, or I go to moderators, the police, the ICE3 or FBI if I have to--which is the civil thing when people spam, harass, or cause you to feel unsafe, and don't leave you in peace--which is all I ever wanted. That's the action I take against people when it's warranted--only for the situation to be contained and to stay out of my hair. Not for them to be unwarrantedly harmed.

Bottom line...

People are exactly who they show you. I will be exactly what I show you.

Everyone you meet will be the kind of person they show you to be.

What comes out of me is inside me. The words I speak come from the heart. And I've strived to make a mature, compassionate, and caring, and civil example. I think my history will speak for itself. Maybe I haven't always been mature situationally, especially when I feel cornered and afraid and continuously spammed when I just want to keep my space respectfully from some people. But I have striven. And I take extreme comfort knowing I did not attack first, that I was patient for a long time. That I tried to handle things civilly first. That I gave plenty of chances. That I tried to move on in peace. And I never wished anyone harm.

In the past two months time or so, I made a few call-out journals. In a couple of those, for the first time ever, I identified the person specifically--in the past 10 years I've been on DeviantArt, I never have done this with anyone until now because I didn't believe it was right. I admit I was provoked to the point where I acted out of fear for my safety and discomfort. But as I wrote in the last journal, I will not be writing those kinds of journals anymore identifying anyone, because it's just provoking people for more trouble.

But I'll leave those journals up for the record and for transparency. Everything I say is open. I am an open book. If anyone makes a claim against me, they need to show specifically the evidence. Otherwise, they're only putting words in my mouth and twisting my language and making false accusations of my intentions. I don't take kindly to that, but...I know what I said. If I ever say anything wrong, I will take responsibility for it. But if I didn't say something, I can rest assured knowing the truth. And I thank you, my friends, who know me, for sticking with me.

The truth is all there is. There isn't anything else but the truth. I think instead of acting out of panic from people who continue to provoke me and try to get to me through spam, or through my friends and provoking them back, I just take comfort in the truth.

So that's what I'll strive to do.

So, I learned more about myself today…Though I got a feeling this is a lesson that repeats.

I give too much of myself to others—in general, yes—BUT especially when I take days off of work. My days off might be days when Im especially vulnerable.

I took today off from my dayjob to rest so I can come back refreshed on Monday, but I ended my day feeling like I said ‘yes’ too many times to too many people, for too many things. I thought each time I said ‘yes’ to something that it sounded ok, like it couldn’t hurt, but by the end of today I said yes to so many people for different things even if it was just having a chat or a call or a favor that I thought I could handle—that I ended up juggling different things most of my day for others instead of…well, resting. And I ended my day off feeling like I wanted to shut down mentally…

So…I really hope I learn my lesson. Again, I feel like this isn’t the first time. I just need to learn to say ‘No’ more often. Especially on my days off—I need to remember I‘m probably more vulnerable on my days off to giving up free time for my available time, when I shouldn’t be doing that. My free time is time for me. ☺️ My available time is for others. And on my days off, I need to uphold my free time. ;w; I need to tell people ‘no,‘ for my mental health, and I need to learn not to cave-in if some friends try to ask me otherwise. Because if I say even a little ‘yes‘ to one friend, I realize I need to say yes to others for it to be fair and it starts a snowball effect for me psychologically. >w<;

Ok…so…next time I can afford a day off from work…which….probably won’t come for another month or two Im going to make it -my- day. I -got- to learn to do this. I just have to discipline myself.

Anyway, it’s my responsibility to do that. I’ll just have to set aside a day to do so...

Anyway, just a little journal to let you guys know where I ended up today, and to get my thoughts down for myself to really discipline myself into giving myself more time to rest, especially on days when Im supposed to prioritize that.

Love you all! Peace.